April

Exercise: Baby steps toward what feels right to do. Maybe a coffee out.

Month 4 was when I realised that “time is a healer” is not true. Time did not heal me. Time stretched the cavern wider. But within that darkness, I began to see more. Instead of hoping for an outside light, I understood I had to create my own.

People would ask how I was doing, expecting “fine,” but the truth was much darker, more layered. I carried guilt, heartbreak, numbness. I often did not know what I felt.

I began allowing vulnerability in small doses, exposing it when I could, hiding it when I needed to. I learned that it was okay to be complex, confused, messy.

This month was about stepping outside the house for the first time with intention. Not to socialise. Not to pretend. But to gently reconnect with a world that did not make sense anymore.

Exercise for April:

Think of something small you used to do, like getting a coffee. Choose a new place if the old ones feel too painful. Go slowly. There is no timeline.

The goal is not to return to normal. It is to acknowledge you are learning how to exist again.